"turning-21". i am coining that phrase as a phase in life.

that's right - "turning-21" is officially a phase in life. how so you ask?

*well, you're not old enough to be wise. and not young enough to be naive.
*you've experience enough relationships to know what makes it sour, and/or sweet, and yet not enough to understand why couples go through marriage counselling.
*you've lit enough birthday candles and attended enough weddings you can remember attending, and yet you're not old enough to want to hate birthdays or want to be in your own wedding.
*you've eaten enough foods, and have savoured hundreds of flavours. yet, you find yourself craving new delights unknown to your tastebuds.
*you've seen colours and understand the concept of shades of grey. and still not get why it has to be black and white.

i'm turning 21, and i still don't get all of it - yet.

here i am, sitting on my couch, in my living room, at 12.30ish AM, wondering what in the world am i doing here. you can look at it from 300 different angles, and you can tell me your 500 different answers for the 300 angles, but i probably still won't be able to tell you why i am here.

school's in less than 9 hours, and i should go to bed.

so let me finish this post real quick. i wished i could talk to you right now. on the beach, listening to the waves of the ocean crashing on the shore, feeling that sea breeze, and smell that ocean salt that fills the air. i really wished i could talk to someone like you, here in calgary. i wished you were here dee/rah. to talk about nothing, and everything, and more of nothing.


i believe i am old enough. and though perhaps, potentially, possibly, maybe, not evolved enough to be in a relationship, i am old enough to realise i don't want to be in one. i am "turning-21".

"you will travel the valley of rejection
you will reside in the land of morning mist
and you will find your home
though it will not be where you left it."
- the starter wife (2007)


i miss you guys so much. and i have no idea why. then again, i probably do, but i'm just being stupid right now and it's late. so i'm going to bed. good night my loves. sleep sweet.

hi.

valerie anne
in my 20s and wonderful.
dressed to dress you.

QUOTE VAL

. i would do you, but i can't. it's just the wrong season right now.

KEEPING COUNT

I've been in canada for days.

THE BOOK IN MY BAG

. in need of a recommendation



. tattoo
. rolex
. prada bag
. hermes birkin/kelly
. hermes scarf
. prada penguin coin purse
. suped up VW jetta mk3 '97
. 911 Turbo
. WRX
. smoked e-codes/fogs
. porsche deep dish rims
. my driver's license
. a shaven head for my 18th


. be a somebody
. make {gravi.tee}
. snowboard
. own my first car
. travel: NYC, all over europe, japan, mexico, chile, argentina, spain, greece, laos, vietnam, bali, dubai, amsterdam
. publish a book entitled "you better quote val, or else" - recommended by derek goh
. fashion school
. travel: roadtrip canada
. travel: roadtrip USA
. move out
. own a house
. ride the dragon in tokyo
. go fish/camping for a weekend
. open a cafe/boutique
. horse-riding
. speak korean/japanese/spanish/french
. skydive over mauritius waters
. white-water raft above level 3
. bungee jump from a suspension bridge
. break the world record for the longest time on a loop-the-loop roller coaster ride
. save an endangered species
. AND prove to my mum that i'll be married before 35.


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