it was truly wishful thinking for it to last longer. the guy i am seeing and i are calling it quits. not because we don't like each other, but because he's leaving calgary.

again.

the last one left for L.A. and this one is taking over the company he works for, which means he's got to travel out of town (for an indefinite period of time). i'm now wondering if they'd just say that they were interested in guys, would that make me feel better?  i know; shitty idea.

"i still want to go to your formal as your date."
"that's great. it's this saturday, and i would want you to be my date."
"but -"
"but?"
"i won't be able to stay."
"it ends at midnight. what time -"
"latest 10.30pm. i have to get my stuff together. i'm leaving sunday morning."
"oh. okay."
"i'm sorry."
"no, i think this is good for you. go for it. i'm behind you, all the way. what are you doing next week thursday?"
"thursday?"
"it's valentine's day."
"i don't know when i'm gonna be back."

silence.

"that's alright."

p.s: i'm still going to get him what i intended to get him. and he'll get it when he gets back.  it's a gesture of friendship, and perhaps of what could've been.  but we shall not dally on that anymore.  (:

"i'm sorry that i always make you wait."
"don't worry about it. i know."
"i don't like my life now. i don't know what to do."
"well, i'm here. i'll listen. i'll help."
"we'll be great as friends."
"yes, if not, i know where you live... (:"
"i know where you live too..."
"okay, how's about we call it a truce?"
"haha. okay."
"see you friday?"
"see you friday val."
"bye bo."

time to take a listen to: natasha beddingfield - love like this (acoustic)


! warning: change is coming.