Today I cleaned my room and reorganized my life. Today I cried just a little. Today I felt a little bit liberated to become whoever I want to be. Today I laid down, stared at the ceiling and sighed out loud. Today I downloaded pictures of places around the world and made a folder of these pictures on my laptop. Today I took a nice long hot bath. Today I set my laptop's background display to change every 5 minutes to the pictures around the world. Today I laughed a little louder. Today I let go of my first big love. Today I grew up just a little bit more. Today I became a single 24 year old lady. Hello 2012, you will be here tomorrow, and today will be yesterday.
hearing aid: mikael karlsson - until we bleed (feat. lykke li)
"we drink the fatal drug / then love until we bleed"
nothing to say today. i find that i have less to say the older i grow. or more inclined to speak less about who i have become. interesting thought hey?
i want to fix people, be capable of physically kicking butt, and a good hearted pedestrian. too many hats can only lead to an overheated head.
"who knows where you'll be in 2013. you seem to keep finding yourself in new places every couple of months."
quote me: "you should google jobs in fashion, mom. you might be surprised."
i think about you from time to time. it is about that time right now. i know that if things were different, i would run to you. i also know that there is no guarantee that your arms would be open to receive me, and that is okay too.
when i'm brave enough, i will say 'hello, i love you.'
hearing aid: the hum and drum of the computers in my school lab
my semester is ending in 5 weeks, and it's been a journey of sorts. i've learnt so much about fashion, and how i fit into this industry. the next couple months will be interesting with styling classes, business and management courses, an internship, AND planning and executing a full-on fashion show!
i'm so so very proud of my works and i can't wait to look back at my portfolio and go, 'i did that, and that, and that, oh and that!' (:
working at Forever 21 has been amazing. i love the pace, the clothes, and the people. i've been getting hours in, and i'm making plans on how to pay off my school loan when i graduate. like adal says, "gotta check 'em dolla dolla bills!" haha.
here's a shout out to my friends and bestfriends in singapore. knowing that whenever i need a shoulder, or advice, or something to get me through a hard week, gives me strength to face another week of madness.
to rah, you're my rock and full-time lover.
to dee, wherever in the world you go, you have a home with me.
to t, i like that i get to spill my nonsense with you, you make me happy (:
i only have love for each and every one of you.
off tangent: the ride for red 2010 is over now, and the team is making their way back from santa monica to calgary. 2011 is in the works as i type!
and on a different tangent: my closest and bestfriend in calgary, anne marie, is planning on moving back to calgary! she moved home to vancouver earlier this year to get answers to some life questions, and now that she's found them, she's decided that calgary is now home. i can't wait to welcome her with big hugs and warm chocolate. she's such a huge part of my life here in canada, and i'm over the moon that she'll be in the same city one day soon.
I'm so excited to be part of this huge venture
The Ride for Red 2010 to raise $2 million for the American and Canadian Red Cross.
hearing aid: music from the '70s, and boys in the workshop playing with their
toys tools.
it's been 16 weeks + 1 day since my epic accident, and i'm doing ... alright. i have good days and bad days. lately, it's more the latter, which i can probably attribute to the fact that i've been out of physio for 10 weeks now and i admit that i've been slipping in keeping up with my exercises (1 hr, twice a day).
my back's been like the little kid who incessantly yanks on your arm to go play with them. ugh. let's just say T3 and naproxen are in my make-up bag, and are my friends i keep at bay until absolutely necessary.
it's like a super-imposed STOP sign in your life, and though you're revving to get out onto the major road, your car isn't ready yet and idling.
on a side note, here's what's my summer's been like:
... vancouver trip #1 - end of exams
... accident
... extended vancouver trip #1.5
... physio, physio, physio
... i hearts my new ride
... vancouver road trip #2
... physio, physio
... tampa, florida - alpha gam convention + holiday
... end of physio
... vancouver trip #3
... hello little brother
... hello little niece
... hello mom, hello sis
... vancouver road trip #4 -
ongoingwhat's coming up
... road trip back to calgary - with mom and sis
... edmonton - alpha gam retreat
... wicked birthday bashes
... romantic dates with mi amor
...
UTAH - family road trip, where i'm looking forward to hot air ballooning.
and come Sept 7,
SCHOOL! i can't wait (: more so, i can't wait to get my life going again. mom says i might not be absolutely ready for it, cos the fact that i fractured my spine should put me out of commission for a year, so not to take it too hard on myself.
i've learnt that i'm bad for sticking to/under the limits. i like to push.
hearing aid: boys in the workshop playing with cars and drills
that's about all.
oh, and my brother's coming into canada from singapore in less than 36 hours.
